Wednesday, July 22, 2009
life's great. fine dandelions.in case anyone still wondering, yes i have graduated. and my heart almost stopped after i found out that van is without a proper internet connection down under. i am not going to pay that much for a bloody internet connection. stripping me from it is brutal.
so now i have an extra reason to not move out of country.
work is awesome. fullllllstop.
and im blogging so that anyone who cares to read know that i am still alive in virtual world. and as much as i hate to do this...i might be doing facebook notes as a bitching outlet. might.
mighty kahunaa.
come come come get me.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 00:26
wanna be starting something
i am a busy bee.come come come get me.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 00:20
Saturday, March 14, 2009
deadline
i miss my dabidoll. she's always making me laugh with her silly antics and questions. and then when i cant sleep, i'll try to keep her awake by pretending to be a vaccuum and sniff her all over.today fara and me wore the same panties. we also said the same thing at the same time which we kept repeating the whole night. which is quite common. i think we have both decided on our latest catch phrase.
ohhhhhh--wooooo-oooohhhh--wooooooo-ahhhhhh---wooooo--oouhhhhhhhhh nooOOooooo.
i hope she understands by now why i can never sleep with her. we're too alike.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 01:29
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
i may be a victim of insomnia. as of late, ive been having this urges at night and it sucks because there's nothing sexual about it. there's no tossing of salad...of any kind. except my own restless body in hopes of falling asleep. ive been doing everything to fall asleep. smoking, standing still for 5 minutes, drink lots of water, ive even read the ingredients of super ring...IN FRENCH.i dont know...could it be that ive turned into a creature of the night?
lets not talk about graduation. cant believe it's coming to a close. felt that only yesterday i had UT in the morning.
poor timmy. mommy misses u.
though it's full of uncertainties, im happy with my life right now. i have lombakbom. we've been doing great. i have great friends who laughs with/at me. life's great.
now about that money...
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 15:45
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
i found myself in you.
she's been asking for it. she's been talking about it.it was hot and steamy. we were in a cave. all buffed up and ready to take charge. we were exploring places and techniques to achieve our one ultimate goal. i was pulling and she was...she was such a tease. we giggled and while my right hand was navigating, my left was working its magic. we were doing it right. we came round many times. she was most definitely satisfied and so was i. . we were so ready to explode...
but then the server went down for maintainance. GODAMMIT!!! puki ah.
and no, there's nothing sexual about this entry.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 01:32
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
if i could have it my way, i would sweep you off your feet and carry you away to the the most magical place on earth.thing is, i havent found out where yet. so until i found out where the hell is this magical place (with rainbows and all) i will warn you beforehand so you will not retaliate when i attempt to sweep you off your feet. cuz if you do, which i sometimes do, you will break this whole motion.
i'd love to spend more time with you and just you. but school's been giving me the stress that sometimes cracks me up like chapped lips. lets pray that our patience is as thick as your new pair of michelin tyres. lets wait till we can finally have it our way. and when we finally have it our way, we can go all the way.
you know what i mean?
olat.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 00:52
dont wanna get high.
unfortunately i think i am.because....
sometimes i do.
my fingers are stained. my pupils are dilated. my extremities are baby pink. and if i die in my sleep there's one thing i wish i could do....
i want to prove that damien lock has got scottish blood somewhere in his body.
it's funny when vanessa said that all americans and australians are european. and i think she said malays are all africans. or maybe i just hallucinate her saying that. maybe what she said was that all malays come from longkangs. i dont know la.
confused la. bodoh punye spray.
but then if all malays are africans and all africans americans are africans, all negro ghettos are negro hos. and all churros are cinammons. then it's cannibalism.
and if gloves is to hands as hats is to heads. then all mat reps are jay z and snoop doggy dog. and if snoop dog is snoop dog and bow wow is bow wow wow where are you now. then bob dog is who?
and now i remembered that i googled 'damien lock is from where?'
i swear it's the spray spray thing. because i malay!
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 00:37
Thursday, November 20, 2008
assess this risk.
i need a fix.feels like a lot of things is whizzing past. but im wheezing fast. im choking on my own dreams. im tracing out alot of things to carve out my life but i lack substance.
and this substance that i know longer know what it is, it could just be the thing that will destroy me. along with my dreams that i desperately wanted to bring to life. i wanted it all. but all is for nothing. nothing is intangible. nothing is never there.
i thought i was doing things right and finally stepping up to the game but words today was enough to hamper my spirits.
i am forever dampened. n 'chasing after' means going in circles. i am a toadstool. i bear too much. and i am my own enemy. for the longest time i have forgotten how to hate. it was forced out of my system my veins my blood. because personally to me it is destructive so i purged myself off this sin.
but realization hits me as it may have you. i am poisonous and my poison is hate.
funny when one's got good news to share, the other is in fearful apprehension. life's like that. life's a game of pretense and we all have a part to play.
i dedicate my first hate to the lehman brothers.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 00:49
Sunday, November 16, 2008
my sister practice black magic.
and after 10pm, my sister has a twin.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 12:46
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
i wish things were as easy as world of warcraft where time is limitless and i can just farm my way up to better experience but no. things just work differently in this world that we live in. sad.and so ive managed to squeeze in 4 magic tricks one of which i cannot do because i do not have a green screen. even if i do, i wouldnt wanna star my mother inside a video. and i wouldnt wanna star myself inside my video because right now, i look like furball/hamtaro with a BALUKU on my right arm. thanks van.
so first up, project trapcode shine. i couldnt think of a text for my 5sec clip and then belachan walked into my room.
yay!
2ndly, i learnt how to create snow using after effects. this was when i was on smoke break and browsing through fara's donut socks album. and then along came fara.
yes. fara's donut socks album will make all the salji in the world turun. tapi tak kene.
so i changed it, and made it to this.
much better.
3rdly, ive learnt transparent text. nothing really interesting about this. but luma matte is no longer numa numa eh.
yup thats it. goodnight.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 23:24
i am learning after effects right now. toe jam. diy is great actually but if your connection is snail slow, all your semangat patah like batang kayu.so anyway, i hope to learn a couple of magic on after effects and HOPEFULLY IF I GET IT REGISTERED IN TO MY HEAD I WILL TEACH YOU FARA DOLA.
i am thinking of quitting school and becoming a full time geek.
no friends nevermind. my mac is my soulmate. FOREVERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!
f0r3v4!!!!!!!!!
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 21:08
Sunday, November 09, 2008
got caught under the weather. kinda weird not having a strict deadline. feels strange to not have to stay up the whole night suffering from bad bad bad back aches. my artwork is up for exhibition for this whole month of november and then it's going to be in school for the whole month of december..prolly january as well.excited.
and speaking of excited and this whole excitement...someone's really excited that it's november. and it's her birthday month. if not it's birthday year. year after year. brat.
i was sposed to get her imogen heap albums. but she couldnt wait so she used my ebay account to get imogen heap albums online. and it's not just any other album. it's 7" vinyl signed by imogen heap. and this really cool album cover with three different images when looked at three different angles. so yes, i've been getting parcels from dont know where and it's not for me.
and now im blogging also because that little girl wanna have something to read the next time here.
the first parcel to arrive. we opened this together in school. should see the look on her face. macam nak kene picit sampai lebam.
one of the three image that will appear on this album.
very very very bad photography. and another angle.
another angle.
and another..
the cd single. enhanced some more.
3 songs only. and she paid 70bucks for it. tepok la tangan semua.
the signed vinyl cover. i love this too. macam oprah's big give.
sharain showing off her 7" vinyl. notice the mole on her index finger. macam focal point. get it?? hehehhh pt 10.
another parcel the next day.
actually tak perlu la big envelope.
she wanted headlock single because of the album cover also. apparently she knows the history of why it's like that. and who made it like that. as if imogen heap kawan dia..
the cover stretches out. kinda cool. i kinda like the foggy effect. macam nak wipe. but cannot.
the cd inside.
yah. 3 songs. aku suka.
another parcel from royal mail also. still not for me eh.
frou frou. padahal hmv confirm ada tau. atau that cd shop in far east. ebay crazed like this la. see anything you like you click.
the inside of frou frou. she freaked out cuz the guy look scary.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 22:49
Monday, November 03, 2008
glass half empty
'The measure of love is when you love without measure. In life there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it don't ever let go, for the chance might never come your way again.Its better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the person you love because of pride.'
this was taken from my friend bryant neo. when i read it, i dont think it wasnt my stooping down low or being foolish to submit myself to the one i love. and it was no longer a question of do you love her or yourself more? it could really be that somethingsomething called love.
thing is..if i love her more, i am selfless. but if i love myself more then why bother?
love is unexplainable. it should be unconditional. love equates godliness. it works in mysterious ways.
love blinds you. love makes you put even the most average looking person on a pedestal. love makes you do things. think things. react to things.
there is a fine line between dignity and pride. pride is when you dont give in dont listen dont care dont admit. pride is when you're not willing to sacrifice and pride is when you're not willing to listen to yourself.
btw hope ashlee is doing okay. and i hope van and lesley could gather their energy to go check on her.
school's in. too fast too furious. anybody want AFTER EFFECTS for mac?
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 15:28
Saturday, November 01, 2008
could be
'im through with doubt there's nothing left for me to figure out'im hoping that samsa, if literally would just turn into a bug. not a cockroach.
gonna go snap some pictures of my exhibition some time this month.
this week has been productive. i will hop on the fyp bus starting next week.
i will beg for an internship the moment i graduate. i want to graduate. i will graduate. i must graduate.
i miss my insanely 1800-cheerful 2 girlfriends in school.
i am in love with mickey knox.
oh mickey mickey mickey.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 21:31
Saturday, October 25, 2008
omelette du fromage.
my jaw dropped as i lay my eyes on the most beautiful brunette tonight. dirty dirty dirrty. it's chilly but she radiates heat to keep me warm. this midsummer's night dream. her green eyes are like two moons.and then i stood smoking a cigarette by the window reciting gibberish to belachan my handsome boyfriend cat. i see. belachan is a french hunk with red beret. charming.
and im losing it.
night has turned me into a typewriter. the oldschool ones.
now back to the brunette.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 02:06
Thursday, October 23, 2008
been kinda busy lately. feel like im there but not there.im currently working on my stuffs for my biennale exhibition in the whole month of november. really excited about it. actually more excited about the points im getting. tonight im gonna do up some posters for my pp presentation. im so stupid to not do it last year.
and then there's the construction of our stuffs for installation in the month of december.
too many things to do. too little time.
and i was writhing in agony the whole of today.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 18:31
Monday, October 20, 2008
today is the birthday of mimi's late mother. and her mother passed away less than a week ago. it was too sudden that i myself still cannot believe it. if it was me, i wouldnt know what to do.im feeling kinda sad about it now. and i dont know why. but i know that mimi is a strong person cuz when i rushed down to see her last week, she managed to force a smile even in the situation she was in.
it really pains me to see a dear friend feeling so lost and at the same time have to be strong for her younger sisters.
hang on tight babe.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 20:57
familiar feeling
im fallin in love again.this time it's with you.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 20:37
i think i kinda lost most of the respect i have for you. not because of what you did. but what you didnt bother to do.was there a need for you to do what you did?
stay out.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 20:11
Saturday, October 11, 2008
nothing compares.
dont hate. it's tiring.the sickening truth is this, for awhile now i have been nothing.
bla bla bla. heartbreaker. bla bla bla. blu bli bli. bla bla bla.
nunupoplockingcherrypopping at 23:39